Read My Scars

it’s been since last fri when the episode at work wif the irritating aussie but i still a lil disturbed by it. maybe cos i was surprised at how i reacted at him. didnt imagine i could react dat way like i hav some kind of darkside. but then the powers of the darkside cant be obtained by a Jedi like me ha! niways, had a fever dis morning and really didnt feel like going 2 work so i stayed at home.

was at romeo’s house wif yatee and him yest. playing Ominusha (rite spelling?) and i cant believe romeo neva got pass the French guy 1st stage ha. den i got some clothes from him to wear for D&D next sat. he’s always my fashion advisor when it comes 2 dese social settings. he said it’s a gift 4 me so dat i can get laid. wat! niway thanx bro!

my kuzzin said i look like Joey from friends wif the big shoulders and tummy thingy.. but i really look glam in it honestly. ha cant wait 4 the day. it’s mummy’s bdae like later! ha i only rem cos i find out it’s Melanie’s (*ogles*) bdae and was wishing her and the date seemed all so familiar. ha just give mummy a kiss i guess.

and when am i going NS!!!!!!!!!! i cant freaking wait anymore!!!! Mr Minister, I am still here!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Zan out!!!!

Yeah!!! the wait is finally over!!!! My brother is finally getting married!!! dunno why i’m getting all excited but the confirmed date is 27th August if i’m not wrong… so fun getting amidst all the planning, the clothes and all the family gossip…

my dad gave me job 2 do… rally my friends and my fellow cousins and get them to be involved in the dining side… u noe like clear tables, usher to tables etc. i can’t fcuking wait…

and o ya D&D is coming… dunno wat to wear, who to go with.. no it’s more like haven’t ask the person to go with. yes, must be postive. i really dunno wat to wear man. it’s a no brainer!!

Zan out!!

my life seems boring rite aft camp. i really missed it. Juju related on how she wished she was at the camp. i felt like telling her how i wish i didn’t go. it’s like different finding yr day to day thing aft the camp. till now i still sing the camp songs 2 myself. and thinking of the falling rain doesn’t help either. i hate dis camp u noe. it always breaks my heart. 2003 was Juju and damn i think i chased her 4 like almost a yr?

but i’m glad she’s one of my fav female frens now but the heavy rain? i dunno she just avoids and ignores me. wasn’t too long ago when she would just hug and grab me from nowhere. i noe i look like a bear but again i think i’m thinking 2 much. maybe it’s really time 2 give up.

it doesn’t help dat it’s now the middle of the month. bills overdue 2 pay, debts and my low pay… sigh… my dad scolded me the other day saying i spend like a married man wif all the debts and stuff but he noes it’s sometimes 4 the family. i wont want my dad and mum 2 work always rite?

and ya Star Wars is coming!!!!!!! i can sense the Force. i cant fcuking wait. i always relate 2 the anakin character. like so many diff choices in life.

but too all and the rain, May The Force Be With You…

just came back from sports camp 05 2 days ago. neva felt so tired my entire life. had a gd time dis yr wif Sue, Vinson, Zhaf, Izyan and Zan in our little room in our so called apartment. and yes they complain again abt my snoring but dis time dere was also Vinson 2 share the blame wif me haha. all the snoring aside, i felt really impt dis time. the GLs looking up and even some of the freshmen who sort of talked 2 me. called me ‘abang’ and stuff. one GL asked if i was Zan’s bf. ha!!! she has a scary bf by the way. Zan aside anyway ya she was dere. all electrifying wif her smile had some alone time although it was not romantic but just work. sometimes i think as if she’s hinting but i dunno cos dis is one fcuking weakness of mine, taking dis stuff as hints. but ya i noe she’s taken me cos i cried dat nite aft camp just thinking of her. argghh!!!! i wish the rain would come and stay………

was sitting around yest aft. my dad was reading his papers. when my dad told me of my bro’s upcoming marriage. he’s like worried cos my dad’s a popular and respected person so he noes alot of ppl and he’s just worried dat he may leave out some ppl and u noe ppl tend 2 get sensitive. dats he made a remark saying i shldn’t get married which was a joke.

well my dad rarely gets into love discussions wif me usually it’s my mum.dats when he asked whether i hav anyone special now cos the previous one made my parents quite angry cos my ex gf was a chinese. they usually termed her as ‘amoi.’ dats when i said i’m single now not even wif the ‘amoi.’ niwae dat was like last yr. my dad den gave me weird suggestions like my kuzzin, his colleague’s daughter and i just sat dere laughing cos i neva guessed my dad would be worried abt my dating life cos in the past to him guys and gals shld neva get 2 close. very traditional, fundamental muslim. if want 2 get married, parents will help find kinda thing.

den i told him don’t worry your son is a dating master. den he lightened up e situation by telling me how he met mum and how he asked her out. ha come on dad yr time was so Beatles!!!! dats how my dad likes 2 term his time cos he was and is a hardcore Beatles fan. ha

niwae, meeting my future sis in law later for a movie. i just got a feeling she’s setting me up on a blind date wif her cousin. i know cos my bro’s not responding my msgs. niwae i’m gonna bail at the last min.

o ya i’m gonna catch Kingdom of Heaven next week. i’ve always loved the stories abt the crusades. i studied dat once b4. i just hope dat movie is not gonna portray Islam as the devil and Christianity as the opposite. cos if i recall correctly, both religions were so bent on victory dat they became so selfless they forgot the very basics of both faiths. Love and Peace. till now u see Muslims and Christians in places like Bosnia, Indonesia, Kosovo battling each other. well for me, the crusades have not ended.

May the Force be With You…

Came 2 school today mainly cos it was an off day and Eunice needed 2 talk 2 me regarding the camp stuff… i think Daren didn’t like me coming cos he asked why i was dere at blk 50 field den i realised he just didn’t want the alumni 2 noe 2 much abt the program… which was kinda cool cos one thing i hav always respected Daren is dat he is very respectful abt his comments…was shocked when he asked me dat but glad he just patted me den said eh sorry paiseh…

one thing i guess is although it’s sad and reminded me of the past… i think i screwed up in the camp 2 yrs back… just handling food and i screwed up ya maybe the budget was low and stuff but dere are 1001 ways for everything… i’ve always felt i owed sth 2 the camp itself which was i’m glad 2 come everytime i’m called up…the frens i made thru the camp are really fond and sad memories…

Buttt… it was another bdae again i just find L******e a sweet gal… i hate getting false signals cos it alwasy seem 2 me not false and i always end up heartbroken and aft last yr’s incident, i don’t want another heartbreak… but glad she talked 2 me in KFC sat like rite in front… ahhh u noe the feeling when u just stand aside and admire the person knowing nothing will ever happen… it’s an incredible feeling but it’s just of no use…

Last sat aft supper wif Arzish, Lokman, Romeo and Hafeez, i was in Hafeez’s car heading back when boom, i was part of an accident… stupid junction, stupid uncle, stupid Soilwork… great music equals great distractions…

but well, went 2 Sentosa yest wif the sports camp gang… got slight sun burns on my upper back… and the funny thing is i rarely get sun burns!!! but at least not as bad as Joanne and Teresa… ha!!! speaking of joanne, she and the other dragonboat gals dropped by my workplace just now… treated em some drinks… and vivian was dere i always notice her cos she reminds me of Juju lah… thanx for the comment Juju!! must admit she does ‘trigger my button’ aft all dis while…

Was at home 2day… nothing 2 do for the GP job so just slack around… try a few guitar riffs… watch dozens of movies… den i realised it is the Prophet’s bdae today actually… working tmr ha mundane stuff is just part of my life… haha

k the track for the month of April is ‘I Won’t See You Tonight Part 1′ by Avenged Sevenfold…neva liked their goth image…but they rock dis love epic which talks of one who is gonna part wif his loved one is damn reeked wif sorrow and sadness…

just noticed dat i’ve been getting overplays of dis song from Hafeez’s car stereo… ahh the brother who always noes wat my ears want.. but really guys, check em out Avenged Sevenfold has GnR in em, Slayer, Metallica, KSE vocals and of cos some classic Gothenburg riffs… Sweet!!! and gals it’d help if i say dat the vocalist has been hailed by critics as the Elvis Presley of metal music cos he freaking looks like him… ahh!!!!!

i’m really blur abt the whole thing man… she seems troubled and he is like into it… i dunno wat to tell my kuzzin dis time… i just stay back and let fate do it…